too much pain

i miss how i was when i was young,
vibrant and full of excitement,
beautiful and skinny,
that's what the world wants now..
beautiful and skinny,
poised and elegant..
i am none of that..
i used to have my confidence,
i used to have my pride,
but slowly,
that too is fading away..
leaving me with nothing..
i am like an empty vessel,
with nothing inside..
is it possible for my heart to hurt anymore?
because i have felt so much..
too much..
that i don't feel pain anymore..
i don't feel anything,
i am too tired..
too tired to feel,
to tired to cry..
i just want to sleep forever....
oh God,please take away this pain inside.....